Nine long months ago, I sat in this very spot and contemplated ending my life.   It wasn’t the first time by a mile, and it wouldn’t be the last time...

Aug 22, 2018

Benefits of an active lifestyle

I have been living with this for as long as I can remember. I think everything this site, Bell Let's Talk, and especially...

Sep 29, 2016

Now my pendulum swings a lot less

So where's the pendulum today?  My first question every day as my feet hit the floor.  So has been my life since the...

Jul 29, 2016

Mother, guilt, and shame

Through the years of mothering my son, my constant companions have always been there; guilt, grief, pain, mental illness and shame. There have...

Jul 25, 2016

My constant carousel ride

A lot of people who suffer from bipolar disorder compare their experience to being on a roller coaster. It's easy to compare the...

Jul 15, 2016

My journey of dealing

For the first eight years of my depression, I managed it-with mediocre success-without the benefit of medication because either the drugs had no effect or the side effects were...

Jul 14, 2016

Moving on

My story is one of many I'm sure, but one that gets very little attention. Since adolescence and for 20 years I had been plagued by progressively worsening autoimmune...

Jul 12, 2016

My ‘normal’ life

As I write this, I worry about grammatical errors I may make, I worry about the phone ringing to give me tragic news, I worry that my clothes won't...

Jul 7, 2016

My depression

When I was clinically diagnosed with a mental illness, I had to take on the responsibility of sitting down with every individual who made up my support system (i.e.,...

Jul 6, 2016

High school hell

Hindsight is 20/20, I wish I had a time machine. If I could go back in time and talk with my 15-year-old self, I would tell her she isn't...

Jul 5, 2016

When I finally sought help

There is not much more that can go wrong for me in 2016. A lot of negative things have happen to me. First,...

Jun 2, 2016

Raised rough. Made strong.

I was born in the 70's, raised in the 80's. Things back then seem so much simpler. But for me it wasn't. I was...

May 26, 2016