Blogging for OCD

I didn’t know that I had OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) until a few months back when I was doing a research study on mental disorders amongst teenagers. All the symptoms and behavioral attributes seemed to mirror mine, and as I indulged deeper into the research, I started feeling more suffocated.

I recalled that even when I was six years old, I used to have obsessive thoughts and actions. They were minor then, but they slowly kept on increasing in intensity.

I didn’t want to accept it.

How could the most normal human being in the whole universe have been suffering from a mental disorder all her life, is what I kept asking myself.

I didn’t want to accept it; I wanted to hide under the label of ‘normal’ for as long as I could. So I didn’t tell anyone. Instead, I started anonymously blogging in search of support and to help people who were going through the same thing I was.

This decision of starting a blog was one of the best decisions that I have ever made. It introduced me to other people who were struggling with OCD and other disorders. These wonderful people gave me motivation to keep on struggling against my OCD, they gave me advice and support, and this was exactly what I needed!

People seriously underestimate the importance of a humble ear!

God, did it feel good to know that there are so many people out there who have gone through what I have and are willing to listen to me. People seriously underestimate the importance of a humble ear.

Writing helps me understand myself better.

Blogging provided me with a platform to discuss my thoughts and my struggles, and seeing my compulsive thoughts glaring at me through the screen, I could now begin to comprehend the pattern that they formed.

I am a writer and writing helps me understand myself better. Writing a blog about my mental health helped me understand my OCD and why I had these compulsive thoughts. It helped me get my OCD in control (and like, I did this all on my own, without the help of a professional therapist and all – although I would recommend seeing one if you feel like you need to, there is absolutely nothing wrong with seeking help).

Now, I can proudly say that my OCD doesn’t control me anymore. I control my OCD. And I will admit, that every now and then, I do have these terrible days where I feel like I am falling back into my obsessive habits. I let myself have these bad days because I know that not every day is going to be wonderfully productive and filled with rainbows and unicorns. Sometimes you’re going to have to face a few evil witches before you can conquer your castle.