I am Vivian


I am Vivian

Close the blinds. Turn on my music. Turn off the lights. Get into bed.  Think of nothing. I did that every single day for years.  Not all day, but it...

Aug 29, 2016

My journey to rock bottom and back

My name is Amanda and I am a 34 year-old mentally chill women. I have been given several diagnoses including Bi-polar type 2,...

Aug 22, 2016

Strength from pain

I'm on the path to a happy recovery. I've taken strength from my pain. I've found resolution in resiliency. Today, life isn't perfect - it's just the way it...

Aug 5, 2016

My piece of paper

At the age of 21, I was diagnosed with depression. I was put on small doses of meds.  And life went on. At the the age of 35, I got real...

Aug 1, 2016

How Catching Em All Can Impact Mental Health

Who'd have thought that a game could help rid people of mental illness symptoms? When people...

Jul 19, 2016

I’ll be okay

I don't know what happened. Well, I do know, I lost the battle tonight. I did not have the energy to fight him. ED snuck up on me. I...

Jul 18, 2016

My journey of dealing

For the first eight years of my depression, I managed it-with mediocre success-without the benefit of medication because either the drugs had no effect or the side effects were...

Jul 14, 2016

Moving on

My story is one of many I'm sure, but one that gets very little attention. Since adolescence and for 20 years I had been plagued by progressively worsening autoimmune...

Jul 12, 2016

My ‘normal’ life

As I write this, I worry about grammatical errors I may make, I worry about the phone ringing to give me tragic news, I worry that my clothes won't...

Jul 7, 2016

The world I know as depression

18, 22, 32, 47, 52 I was eating bread. 18 years old, hanging out at a friend's place and eating bread when I felt...

Jun 24, 2016

Entering treatment

It's Wednesday morning and the phone rings. "Are you sitting down?" it's the voice of my Case Manager from the eating disorders program. No need for her to know...

Jun 23, 2016

Battle scars

Where do I begin? So much pain, both physically and emotionally, have recently occurred in my life. I currently live in fear. After 19 years of anorexia and bulimia,...

Jun 15, 2016