Oct 9, 2019
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Hello my name is Heidi , and I am a mental health advocate.
I have dealt with mental health issues most of my life, starting as a teenager. Starting in my 20s and continuing to now (36) I have used a variety of supports, including medication and therapy.
I have a diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder, and have symptoms of anxiety and PTSD.
Unfortunately, those changes weren’t helping.
As 2017 started, I was heading into what was perhaps my most difficult time.
In February and January alone I went to my doctor five times trying to adjust my doses and adding in new meds. Unfortunately, those changes weren’t helping and by April I was very unwell. At this time, I went to the ER hoping to be admitted to the psych centre, which luckily I was.
We did a med changeover and after three weeks I was feeling better and was discharged. This year, in March 2019, I was again in a low place and was admitted for a week to do a medication adjustment. I’m not ashamed of spending time in psychiatric care and see it as a good thing. I now have the support of a case manager, therapist and psychiatrist and I am on a fancy cocktail of medications. These things are key in my recovery.
I’m not ashamed of spending time in psychiatric care.
After my first hospitalization I started an Instagram page as a way to express myself and I was lucky to be able to gain a following.
I now have over 2,500 followers, who are engaged and supportive. I share my story because I want others to realize that they are not alone. I want people to see themselves in the stories and projects I share. I have received many messages and comments from individuals saying; “I thought I was the only one.” I believe the more open and honest we are about our struggles, the less stigmas will hold power over mental health. I believe each time we share our story there is the potential to reach a new person who was afraid to begin their healing journey, but may now make the choice to reach out.
That is why I do what I do.
Trust me when I say wellness is possible.
You can find me as @mentalhealthyxe if you’d like to follow along.
I am living proof that you can be at the lowest of places mentally and still survive and continue to thrive. I am proof that with proper support things get better. I am proof that it is okay to be open and honest about mental health.
I love who I am and I’m grateful for being here. Trust me when I say wellness is possible!