The darkness and I


The darkness and I

I’ve struggled with mental illness for years. For a little while now, I’ve had more good days than bad. Tonight I find myself unusually low. There are probably a...

Aug 17, 2017

Mental Illness is not a character flaw

My story begins when I was about 6 years old. This is the first time I have a memory of feeling “ anxiety." I had...

Aug 8, 2017

Practice makes imperfect

My favourite movie as a child was "Mary Poppins," who was "practically perfect in every way." Fitting, since by three years old, I had...

Aug 1, 2017

Changing the medication conversation

Over a year ago I was a person existing in a constant state of fear; I was literally a person who was living...

Jul 26, 2017

Dancing with the B*tch

Living and teaching with depression - still able to do what I gotta do, but I have to adapt to that bitch depression's timetable.  I can't do class prep...

Jul 18, 2017

Each day is a new beginning

April 11th, 2016…Nothing seems to make sense.   Everything is my fault.   Nothing is going to get better, there is no way out of...

Jul 11, 2017

All I really needed

My mental illness began in high school when I started developing body dysmorphia and cripplingly low self-esteem. I looked in the mirror and my reflection grimaced back, my face...

Jul 4, 2017

A life forever changed

From a very young age I knew my home was unlike most others.I had a severely alcoholic father and an unstable mother who was a victim of frequent domestic...

Jun 27, 2017

The elevator

I sat in the doctor's office waiting for my prescription to be adjusted. “Alright Christopher, I’m going to lower your dosage and see if that makes a difference. Take an...

Jun 22, 2017

Coming out of the ‘M.I.’ Closet

“M.I.” mental illness or mission impossible? Admitting you suffer from mental illness is more like mission impossible. I was diagnosed with anxiety and...

Jun 13, 2017

The voice of depression is silence

"Don't submit it!" "Nobody will care!" "C'mon - you're just one guy among millions of people suffering!" These aren't quotes from others. These are well and...

Jun 8, 2017

Insignificant rubble

I feel like the rubble you find on the sidewalk. The driveway. The path behind your house. Sitting there, but you don't notice it, as insignificant as a fleck of lint...

Jun 6, 2017