I have to stay alive

Self Harm

I have to stay alive

At a very early age I began self harming -- I was a hair puller. My parents were constantly trying to hide bald spots. They took me to a doctor...

Oct 10, 2018

Gaining an understanding

I have been riddled with shame ever since I can remember, which is as far back as six years old. I was born with...

Sep 19, 2018

I am winning

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) when I was 17 years old (2008). I had always been very shy; I had always been scared to try new...

Aug 29, 2018

There will be days

There will be days that hurt worse than you can imagine. Days that feel like weights. Anchors. Drowning. There will be days that make you question everything. Whether you’ll laugh again, whether you’ll...

Jul 25, 2018

One lucky Motherf***er

Today is a great day to tell my story.   It is Thanksgiving and I am grateful for this life!  I don’t know if it was because of watching "13...

Dec 19, 2017

Talking with friends

A few weeks ago I had a bad night. It had been a good day nothing bad had happened and I was ‘ok’. I guess that somehow makes me feel...

Nov 1, 2016

Asking for help

A few weeks ago, I had a bad night. It had started off as a good day, nothing bad had happened and I was ‘ok’. I guess that makes me...

Oct 12, 2016


It's November, I'm sitting in a hospital bed around one in the morning. An ambulance has brought me here. I stared out the back window as we were bouncing...

Aug 26, 2016

I’ll be okay

I don't know what happened. Well, I do know I lost the battle tonight. I did not have the energy to fight him. ED snuck up on me. I...

Jul 18, 2016

My name is caregiver

My name is Caregiver. Not the name I was born with but the name I chose when our son could no longer hide the new friends he was answering to...

Jun 21, 2016

The change is coming

The town of Woodstock has a population of roughly 38,000 people, it is by definition, a small town. Since the start of 2016, five of their own children have...

Jun 16, 2016

I am not my mental illness

I was 23 years old sitting on the floor crying, cutting myself trying to make the voices go away. My friend called the...

May 13, 2016